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Sunday, 24 February 2008

No one Can get in the way of what I'm feeling....

Today i cant believe it BUT i managed to watch the 50th Grammy Awards re-run with my parents! ha ha ha :) It seemed that lately, my weekends are usually just the three of us, Mom, Dad and me...when the rest of my other siblings are just out and about. So, today it was the same...sometimes i'll be in the room and i can hear my mom and dad laughing about watching the TV together...and other times i can hear them arguee about who gets the remote control...hehehe so funny but it shows that they are very much loving in their own ways that is their age i think they are just happy to have each other and just stay together.And this evening my dad took my mom out for dinner and big old me lazy to cook get some "Tapau" from my beloved parents...Life is wonderful! hahahhhaa!

Anyhow, back to the 50th Grammy' and dad and myself have fun watching Amy whinehouse performing and and mom kept asking me why is she dresed like that and what's with the bee hive hairdo she was saying...and before i can answer her my dad answered and said she's supposed to go to a rehabilation centre to get her alcohol and drug treatment so maybe thts why she is dressed that way..then my mom start saying poor thing look at her skinny thighs...and look at her eyes...she looks like she is really stoned (ha ha ha ha) listening to both them talk....gosh my parents watch too much MTV i think and its even funnier when my mom seemed to know all the rap singers especially kayne west...hmnmmm...ah well....its nic to know my parents are hype with the latest music and songs..much better then myseld actually :P

So still with the Grammy's ...i think the singer i love most there is Alicia Keys and i love her i'm going to leave you guys with a video clip of her song and also her lyrics which moved me and very much inspired me and my parents agree that she deserves to win more then 1 grammy :)

So here are the lyrics and video clip! Enjoy!

Alicia Keys No One Lyrics

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So till the end of time I'm telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh


This song is so amazing, I’m struggling to think of another like it. It’s passionate,emotional,inspiring and uplifting. Alicia Keys voice is unbelievable. What a fresh sound! If 2 people have feelings for each other like she feels for someone in this song, those 2 people would need nothing else in life.

No one Can get in the way of what I'm feeling....


Thursday, 21 February 2008

Happy Chap Goh Mei!

On the fifteenth day of Chinese New Year, technically the final day of the festival, is a day known as Chap Goh Mei. Means "the 15th night of Chinese New Year". Aside from being tagged as the last day, Chap Goh Mei is also known as the Chinese Valentine's Day.

One of the fun activities that take place on this auspicious night includes the throwing of oranges into the sea by these young ones. It is without a doubt, the most popular and colorful moment in the history of Chap Goh Mei. It is believed that by throwing tangerines into the sea, these young girls would find themselves a good husband. For many, the act of throwing tangerines into the sea also signifies that these women are available for marriage. It is also said that if someone else who sees the floating tangerine in the water and picked it up, that generally means that the single who threw it would be able to find a good spouse.

Funnily, while many of us may have imagined that such a tradition is passed forth from China, it is strangely not. In fact, this interesting practice originated from a little Malaysian island known as Penang. This took place some time towards the end of the 19th century. On top of that, tangerines are sold at an exorbitantly high price but then again, who says romance is cheap? Hehehe :)
Anyhow...Happy Chap Goh Mei to all :)

Wong Siew Lian

I found's really funny

I was trying to sign in to my blog thingy when an advertisement pop up on my screen about a boy neding cheering up..he looked so sad and gloomy and suddenly my cursor is a was written there " Tickle the Fat Kid .... Until it laughs hard" or something like that....well, i guess curiousity kills the cat...i went to place my temp leaf of a cursor and tickle the fat boy indeed and here is what i get to see :)...hilarious....what a way to start a day with a huge smile :)
Before the tickle...look how sad and grumpy his face looks like..then......

After the tickle..he is all laughing andsmiles and loving the attention... :)
what a way to start a day! Happy Day Everyone!

Sunday, 17 February 2008

I have a visitor :)

Well, after the birthday bash at Bella Italia, i had another thing seemed that i had a suprise ride home with someone :) It was wonderful indeed as it will definately be the first time for both of them to come visit me @ my home and finally get to met with my dog OB for they are too are both nuts about wonderful "branded Dogs" as flashy would say it goes the pics :)

But before are pics of us possies outside the Bella Italia restaurant waiting for the rain to stop while we wait for our ride to come get us ... :)

possies :)

Told you guys it was a wet wet wet day ....

Here is Morientez, myself and flashy :) And mom who is not in the picture coz she malu2 to take pics hahaha :)

Then here is my dog introducing himself to morientez and yeaps! he is in LOVE mode now hahaha!! he like morientez very very much

My ride home was sponsored by----> Morientez & Flashy :)

Thank you kindly to both of you :) I know Lok Kawi is not so near so very very much appreciated to both of you for the ride back home! :) Btw, mom enjoyed her time very much talking to flashy & Morientez about everything and anything ..hehehe so a big plus! ;)

Ok whose going to jalan2 and visit me next?? :)

Lok Kawi-ing!


January Babe - Rainbow Birthday Bash 2008!

So it was the time of the year and month for us to celebrate our Jambus Birthday girl for th emonth of January and we have "pretty Kismet" as our Birthday gal for January.

Was a wet wet wet day since yesterday but it makes it more pleasant to dine there @ Bella Italia and the mood was just nice and romantic just what sums up Pretty Kismet i should we hope she enjoyed her treat there and also we wish her many many happy birthdays to come and may all her dreams come true! emmuahhhhh! from all of us Jambu Gals ;)

Here are the pics to depicting our time there at bella italia :) enjoy them pics folks ;)

Grazzie as Chef Maurizio puts it!


Saturday, 16 February 2008

The COLD strikes again!

I was feeling kinda groggy the day before which was on Valentines Day but i thought it's going to go away then i started sneezing and nose become so bloody irritating and the cold cold tempreture in my office box room didnt help either's been capturing 13degrees temp the whole week and its insanely crazy and the management of the building couldnt do anything to at least make us feel like we are in the correct tempreture instead of feeling like we are in Alaska in an igloo is more like it...ppfffffffff! How long more can i stand this maddening situation ! cant even type on the keyboard for every few minutes i have to get my finggers back in my winter jacket....yes people...sadly and wearing a frickin "Winter Jacket" + Thermal stuffs that we usually wear during winter and STILL...i can feel the shivers going in my bones!! I hate this! and top of it all....i have the blasted flu! :(

So i went to our panel doctor and he told me i got to get some rest and take up some medications and some time off from work to recuperate :) So recuperate i take my mind off being sick, i went snooping around with my camera...and here is what i got...Enjoy:)

red nose me,

Thursday, 14 February 2008

Happy Valentines Day 2008

Well this gives me the opportunity to wish everyone a VERY

Happy Valentines Day !

May we celebrate the love for love for Now, today and for always!

We celebrated V-day much earlier then the actual time and so, when we reach Kundasang he ask me to about the everlasting flower so i was telling it to him and he told me to get three bunches of them everlasting flowers and to choose ones that are brightest. So i did and then he told me that one is for my mom from both of us and one is for me and one is for him to bring back to his apartment and its all for an advance valentines day flower he said :) Other flowers wont do coz it will die he said and this everlasting flowers will be perfect. So here are the flowers he gave to my mom and me :)

And it so happens that, he gave me a rectangle vase from Vietnam when he visited me last december before christmas, so i was using that vase to house the everlasting flowers so its just a perfect combination :)

Mon coeur Happy V-Day!

Merci beauchoup for the flowers mon coeur :) it really meant a lot to me fo its everlasting love from both of us :)

Lots of love,


Wednesday, 13 February 2008

Long, long break....1st Day of CNY - 7th February 2008

Its not everyday that we get to have a long break and to that it must be spent to the fullest :) and it is twice as fun and wonderful when we get to spend the "break-time" with our sweetheart. For me it was a wonderful opportunity for both of us to see a little bit more of Sabah and rediscover those places we usually see on brochures about sabah so basically its back to basics for me when i have to be the tour guide for mon coeur so that he can enjoy his stay as well as learn more about our culture here. So first stop would be KK itself and here goes the self explanatory pictures with the help of a few captions :)

The dragon dance @STAR

The Koi Fish pond @ STAR

Mon Coeur & me at the Jetty @STAR

@ Jesselton Point where we had our dinner at Nasi Padang Ibu and our designated driver for the day was my brother Reno :)

End of 1st Day of CNY :)


Wednesday, 6 February 2008

Something chinese...and something simple

From the moment i got back from Half Day Work today....Mom's been attentively busy-ing herself on me...first she was commenting me on my picture taking technique which i never heard of she ever saying anything then somehow we got into talking about the internet and finally we sat on the swing and showed her stuffs on the net and we had a ball..she was reading about how ms. envy and her kids are doing in canada and we browse about a few other things on the net regarding interesting photos and she particularly like ms. envy's and aliceinwonderland's blog coz she can view lots of her great grand nephews and nieces so it was fun...and she saw mapsy's blog and all i can say is she was trully amazed at what we can do on our blog and perhaps...she too wants to start on one...soon mummy dearest, me and mapsy will do our best to get you and dad connected to the net and bugg the hell out of mapsy and my life everyday with skype calling every 5 minutes hahahaha...gosh i cant imagine that.... :P

So still on the topic with my 3pm i was still talking with her about everything and anything and dont know how it come about suddenly i found myself agreeing to cook a dish tonight thats going to be really chinese in our sino sense that by 6pm she was already ready in the kitchen to help me around the kitchen to cook "something chinese" as according to her its chinese new year eve and therefore we should have something of a chinese feast tonight. So looking at whats available in the fridge chicken and some vegetables and chinese sweet white what the heck i hentam here is my chinese feast...which i dont know what to call it but its chinese anyways ! hahahaha :P

Like my mom said....enjoy the feast and happy new year to all of you :)

here's the dish..i'll call it mom's chindian chiken stirfry .hahaha

Chindika me!








Clarity & Pretty Kimet
Morientez, Clarity, Chicky Egg & Pretty Kismet

Angpow lai le........


Monday, 4 February 2008

Looking very oriental today :)

I didnt realised that i look different today as to me everyday i look the same for maybe every now and then i change my make up colour but thats just about it..then today i actually had a "Bad Hair Day" so...cant do much if the wont do what we want them to do and look so i had to make do with hair clips so ..i had a all back hair do today and clip all my hair to the back. I didnt know that i look any different but it seemed like my uncle Siven, who have never said anything how i look since i've worked with him suddenly look at me and told me that i look very very different today..hmn....then others were saying to...i still think i look the same but then again my silk blouse might have made it look more dramatic for a chinese opera lady ! hahahahahah well have a look at this pic and im sure u will say..i think she looks just the same :)

Oriental me...NOT! Chindian i think hahhahahah!



I read a very interesting article on the Sunday Paper that i decided to Blog about me, its definetely an interesting article...i was reading it and was hooked on it! all the singles and not so single peeps out there...Read on ;) It's kinda like a summary to the real article...but also reading between the lines theres another story there. So here it is....THE LOVERS LEAP :)


Throw yourself into intimacy. Go ahead; take a leap on love :)

Perhaps that's why most of us, at least some of the time or most of the time, are frightened by another deeply primal experience which is:
. Allowing yourself to become emotionally close in the psyhological equivalent of skidding off a cliff, hence the expression "falling in love". This gauzzy phrase usually describes a sexual connection. But LOVE
has variations that can swallow the floor under your feet at any moment. You're securely installed in a relationship, marching through life. Then
You hear a song and you know that the composer has seen into your soul. Or you wake up, bleary with jet lag, in a city you've never seen before and feels like you've come home.

Me : * oh gosh....i was afraid of what i was reading and consuming and fathoming really...coz it made me tipsy...of what im experiencing......just grasping to whats relation to actually loving every minute of this BOOM! thingy :) NEXT!!....

Suddenly, - Too late - you realise that your heart has opened like a trapdoor, and you are tumbling into deep, sweet abyss. This sensation you are feeling is probably associated with decreased activity in the brain region that senses our bodies location in the physical world. When this zone goes quiet, the boundary between "self" and "not self" dissapears. It isnt just that we feel close to our object of affection; perceiving ourselves as seperate isnt an option. It is now that "someone" matters to us as much as we maters to ourselves. Yet we have no control over either the love or the beloved.

Me : * Yes...just like the Olivia Newton John'n song suddenly...everything seemed to be topsy turvy and upside down and finding out how things does matters and definately "self" right now is taking a leave and become "not self" for a moment until that "someone" matters to us as much as we maters to ourselves becomes the beloved.


We focus attention on stories about people, from Othello and Huckleberry Finn to the lusty physicians on Grey's Anatomy, who trip into versions of intimacy (passion, friendship, parental protectiveness) they can neither escape nor manage. These stories each teach us why our ways of dealing with it are usually misguided. Two of these methods are so common, they're worth a warning here.

Me: *Oh...times like these...what would the warnings be and would it be making any huge impact? We shall see...ok get on with the Bad Ideas in love!


There's an old folktale about a giant who removes his own heart, locks it in a series of metal boxes and buries the whole conglomeration. Thereafter, his enemies can stab or shoot him, but never fatally. Of course, he also loses the benefits of having a heart such as "happiness". The giant sits around grimly trying to enjoy the play, until he's so miserable one day he went on to dig up his heart and stabs it himself. This grisly parable reminds us that refusing to love is emotional suicide. Yet many of us fight like the giant to guard ourselves from intimacy, boxing up our hearts in steel-hard false beliefs.

"I'm unlovable" is such lockbox. "Everyone wants to exploit me" is another example. Then there's "I shouldn't feel that" and "I have to follow the rules", etc. Whatever your own heart-cofins may be, notice that they're ruining your happiness, not preserving it. As poet Mary Oliver puts it, "Listen, are you breathing, just a little, and calling it a life....For how long will you continue to listen to to those dark shouters, caution and prudence? Fall in! Fall in!

If you've buried your heart to keep it from hurting, actually it's hurting more from hurting.

Me: *oklah...maybe it was not burried just kept aside maybe? But I think its in the open now breathing hard and smelling them flowers out there so not so like Davey Jones from the pirates of the carribeans...MY heart is in tip top working condition and its enjoying outdoor life now :)


"If you don't love me, I'll kill myself. If you stop loving me, I'll kill you"
Some people believe such sentence or statements are expressions of true itimacy or love, when actually they're weapons of control. This destroys real connection faster than restraining order. Though few of us are this radically controlling, we are often use myriad forms of manipulation and coercion. To the extent that we try to make anyone do, feel, or think anything – whether our weapon is people-pleasing, sarcasm, or a machete – we trade intimacy for micro-terrorism. So, if neither control nor avoidance works, what does?

Me : *Reminded me of an old memory, well not so old actually which still haunts me every now and then for the fact that this "controlling" situation got out of hand and lead to a disclosure of the relationship. It is very disturbning with this kind of controlling but because each of us are an individual and always will be an individual. Even when we are married or living together or just together it doesnt mean that we have to lose our individuality because that's what made us fall for each other in the first place. So why change that and mold the other significant one to be someone else that's going to make him/her unhappy? So this is what I went through and I'm so very glad that it's over and I've moved on and much wiser in terms of knowing whats best for me now and happier too . In, I made it the first criteria for any relationship I'm having and that's the person have to respect me as an individual and never try to change me and just take me as I am. To me this is very important so it's a must for me.


In the "Ultimate Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" Douglas Adams reveals the secret of flying. Just launch yourself towards the ground, and miss. "All it requires is simply the ability to throw yourself forward with all your weight, and willingness not to mind that it's going to hurt...If you fail to miss the ground. Most people do fail to miss the ground, and if they are really trying peoperly, the likelihood is that they will fail to miss it fairly hard."

Avoidance and control can't keep our hearts from falling, or cushion the landing. Why not throwing yourself forward being willing not to mind that it's goin gto hurt? Please note: "being willing not to mind" isn't the same as genuinely not minding. You'll mind the risk of intimacy – count on it. Be willing anyway. How? Simply allow your feelings – all of them – into full conciousness. Articulate your emotions. Write about them in a journal, tell them to a friend, and confess them to your therapist. Feel the full extent of your love, your thirst, your passion, without holding back or grasping at anything or anyone (especially the object of your effection)

Me: *I think this really is a good idea indeed. Free falling to whatever comes what may is a feeling that's just out of this world and I can only imagine that it's going to be thrilling and devastatingly awesome... da di da di da ;)


When fear hits, when you want to grasp or hide, shout "woo-hoo!" instead. While there is never – not ever – a sure foundation beneath our feet, the willingness to celebrate what we really feel can turn falling into flying. [You don't need an airplane to practise woo-hoo skills]

Me: * Well...i guess I'm woo-hooi-ing myself right now to oblivion...hahaha...its a scarry feeling but wonderful at the same time...just like the feeling of zero-gravity ... the same feelings those beautiful clouds I saw on the plane was having I think and they are in cloud time every day of their life! How cool is that I guess the greatest love feeling champions of all are the clouds coz they are always on cloud 9 :)


Nevertheless, what people really panicking about nowadays isn't the falling actually, it's the landing. Yet, realise that there are only two possible landings for someone who embraces intimacy, and both are beautiful. The first possibility is that your beloved will love you back. Then you won't land; you just fall deeper into intimacy together. This is how bald eagles prepare to mate – by locking talons and free-falling like rocks – which is deeply insane. The other possibility is that you'll throw yourself forward and yell "Woo-Hoo!!", and smashed into rejection. Will it hurt? Indescribably YES! It'll hurt.

But if you still refuse to burry your broken heart, or force "someone" to "fix" it – if you just experience the crash landing in all its gory glory, you'll probably ended up creating a miracle :)

Me: * I know this part too well and its hard not to think back and not wanting to give it up but usually the crash landing is what got us through a lot of obstacles in life and made us more aware of what we want in life and in love. But no doubt crash landing has the opposite effects too but it's a miracle on its own when we believe we can survive another crash landing. So I did survive a few crash landings but to burry my heart like the Giant did is not my way to put out the pain. The pain felt is just to maximise the love feeling when we do feel loved and be in love when we finally found the object of our effection and that's when eagles soars and "we can move mountains" statements is suddenly very famous...hehehe..But its true...coz I know the feeling :) trust will want to move mountains hahahaha

If you fall into intimacy without resistance, despite your alarm, either you will fall into love, which is exquisite, or love will fall into you which is more exquisite still. Do it enough and you may just lose your fear of falling. You'll get better at missing the ground, at keeping a crushed heart open so that love can find all the broken pieces. And the next time you feel that vertiginous sensation of the floor disapearing, even as your reflexes tells you to duck and grab, you'll hear and even deeper insticnt saying, "Fall in! Fall in!"

Me: * hmnn...With all the warning and alarms and all I still in other words...i'm in love! :) Happy falling everyone! And last but not the least Bonne chance!!

In love!